Trying to be the person I was told I needed to be are over. Those days are gone and the mask has come off.I figured I needed to do that to be accepted and not be dismissed.I felt like I couldn't sit in my own truth without being spit on,looked at as a beast,a curse or anything other than human.
That deeply stirs the soul and leaves holes in my heart.Gave up all of my comforts just to be toss to the wolves with steak sauce on me.To be abandoned time and time again.The pain in hearing your life is not worth a dime is a sound that never grows old to my ears.A steady roll like a merry-go-round just living off memories.A completely lost soul that's pathetic and weak....
The only thing that settle and stays with me is pain without leaving.The only thing I feel fit for and nothing else.I guess there's some things in this that some of us will never be and befriending another person is not one of them.
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