Been up all night and after having a three hour convo with "T".I said I was feeling lower than low.He asked how low?..low enough to feel the devil's pain so I felt the need to do this.I know what expect but don't know what I will get..Don't know how anyone is going to interpreted this or if anyone care to read it.Besides I don't think anyone really know us but we don't want anyone to answer this out of pity or etc....The only thing I'm upset about is not having anyone being straight but instead we got silence,something we got for a long time.
Some told us when we came here that they understand we were there because we paid a price and it wasn't our fault.That was one of the few moments that amazed us.After awhile we thought we had found some survivor sisters and soul sisters.Lovely and caring,some are funny but all are good to communicate with.
But it funny how things change on us and I don't know what happened to put us this spot we're in at the moment.Feel like we're paying a price for some unknown reason.Being push aside,ignored,feel like we are not wanted here and all anyone has to say is you're not wanted/needed here.If that's the case then why are we here?
I understand not knowing what to say at times but clearly it much more when no one is saying anything.I wouldn't want my worst enemy feeling the way I do right now and I truly hope none of you feel this way..I guess you have to know the feeling to know what I'm saying.I'm big on promises cause I know they can be broken but I have one to ask and you won't here from me.I promise you this time.Somethings you just can't take back and in my case it's been too many.Would you pray for me?
I deeply and truly thank you for giving us that onetime amazing moment.Once was our survivor/soul sisters!
wanna answer you cause i would hate for you to think i don't care.oh i'm Wyatt by the way and you seem like a really sweet and caring person.everything is still in place like i told you.
oh you know the story!
haven't you heard it's all made up just all in the head.at least that's how some made us feel.we're the dirty people from around the corner that no one wants to associate with.feel like the lowest person on the face of this earth.you and i are back and forth on this so i can only see what your thoughts are on this.
i want you to really,really think and ask yourself,,,do you really think that people care about me?.....where i'm at,been or going through or even where i'm going to end up?...just sick of having my feelings emotions played with.
i would rather be hurt by the truth than by a lie.but i only blame myself for this and everything else that has or goes wrong.i'm still on that silly s*** cause at the end of the day you only have you to face and no one else.
Don't want to pluck any feathers but I knew that line was coming.That's why it's placed for no replies it's just when it comes to me people don't know what to say.Someone came on board when I asked but that won't happen again.
And that's not anyone's dept but don't worry about nothing.See I understand why tho 4 sure.They have grown weary of this life of mine and so have I.Everyone is mentally and emotionally weary,with weary limbs.I'm just glad I can't see the weary look on their faces.Weary of going down the same road with the sameness of the crazy people.
They see it useless to reason with a bag of nuts.So what do you do with something that is no longer useful?...Understand that too cause what we are,are already written on the body.Others will know what purpose we served when we lived.It's not like we can be turn into something valuable or anything that anyone wants.Not daddy's used up whore that have been TTG (TRAINED TO GO)
Hope no one will feel bad cause this ain't their problem.
This is starting to feel like a personal blog or something!
It's that time again world where everyone is out tonight.That's the frustrating part of being label with this type of mental illness.Been in touch with the PD and the warrant is hasn't been sign yet so we have to wait.This one smug a__ cop thought he would offer a few words of advice.That's what has brought everyone out and some of it to cause a lot of anger.
From that conversation it's basically the way we summed it up.
Do or get done
Step or get stepped on
Walk or get walked on
Either you shake or get shook
Flip or be flipped
You can't run from everything
Can you walk it like you talk it.play it how it goes.Gotta show them that you can go where they go.
It's not our fault but we are paying the price.
Everyone's freedom comes at a price.
The hate and anger is spreading like wildfire now.You could look at it like a street code,you know.See we have been on the wrong line for a while now.Thinking the line we were on was the ones helping us but they are the ones that doesn't want any part of it.Now that's one heck of a wake up call 4 real.Wipe the smile off your face cause you can't be friendly or they'll take it for weakness.
OK world now here's where we are gonna give you what we got from that whole convo. We have to be willing to talk the talk and walk the walk.No jokes and no games you gotta stop being the but of everyone's jokes.Here's where you gotta do it cause there's nowhere else to go.Flipping the script a little bit here but don't wanna confuse you.
Gotta be willing to fight with the lions
Gotta be willing to sleep with the tigers
Gotta be willing to eat with the bears
Gotta be willing to dance with the gorillas
Gotta be willing to strike like the most poisonous snakes in the jungle.
Gotta be willing to swim with killer whales
Gotta be willing to jump with the daredevils
Even if they know still make a believer out of them or they will make monkeys out of you. What they want is what they gonna to get.When we get through they will know us cause right now they don't know.There's no such thing as protection or doing the wrong thing when you have been fight longer than you have been living.View Thread
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