(trigger) thank you. visiting family is always stressful (unless it is only my mother and i). too many memories/flashbacks, etc. this time i am going to see my dads wife since (first time since he passed) I am not sure how she will feel about that after accusing me of ending my fathers life by administering medication, but i did tell her i would see her next time i was in the state.
The west coast is awesome. the mountains, trees, streams, beaches, etc. its nice to be able to get away sometimes. perhaps you will get to see an orca or 2 View Thread
Hi Caprice, I have been in several communities and there are a few more that I have experienced. I am asking you because you have been in most. Any recommendations on one that covers all or most mental health issues? It is hard enough trying to keep up with the community discussion (having to refresh after each post) I don't think I can manage moving from from community to community on a regular basis.
Hi Caprice, I plan to fly to my mothers and drive her to see the rest of the family for her birthday (she will not fly). hopefully the visit will be uneventful. . we have not all been together for positive reasons in a long time.
[trigger> if what i remember is not good, i am sure i do not want to fill in the gaps. when i think about it i get angry so i just think of a brick wall and breathe. it helps most of the time. i am afraid of the day my anger escapes. Not so much for myself but whoever is around me. heart racing just thinking about it.
how bout them green bay packers (subject changer....lol)
i am sorry for not using the 'trigger' in the other room. wasnt thinking it could affecting others.
thank you Caprice, (hope no offense taken about taking up your time - i just feel if i cannot commit once starting something, i have just wasted the other persons time.
the other day I was asked about growing up I have a lot of empty spaces in time - those that are not empty, not so good.
I lied (don't know if it was because of shame and/or not wanting to share) and said it was good growing up (I think it was a 'generation' question ... i.e. our generation.... what about when you grew up) I had a panic attack, took meds, changed the subject.
Thanks again for your kind words. I will hang around for a while - see what the next day brings.