(((gentle hugs if okay))) I'm glad that you have your brother and his wife at least that can help you as much as possible.
I understand why you would be concerned with him hurting someone if they stood up to him. It sounds like he is very dangerous. Please be careful.
I had come onto this board before and talked, anonymously, when I first started confronting my abuse, but I have to say that I didn't start to make much progress at all until I saw a counselor. She helped me to work through what had happened. It's not something that is going to heal overnight but in time it does get easier.
((((hugs if okay))) I'm so sorry that you've gone through that. it's important for you to remember that what happened wasn't your fault. Like what the others have said counseling might really help you work through what's happened to you. I'm just a couple years younger than you and grew up very sheltered too.
Believe me I know how hard it is when you have to see and deal with the person who abused you... It's something that I had to deal with a lot. Keeping my distance and staying close to friends helped me a lot. Especially making sure that I wasn't left alone with the person either.
The book "The Courage to Heal" is a good one to check into too. I would recommend looking into seeing a counselor or a Therapist too.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to reply. I don't come into this board very often anymore.
Welcome to the board but I'm sorry that you're here if you know what I mean.
I've been gone for awhile now... Sorry that I didn't really let anyone know here. I will probably just be lurking for awhile. You're right, Gettoknowme. I think most everyone on here is struggling. I wish peace to everyone and please keep yourself safe.
We are all imperfect and sometimes things come out of our mouths, or in this case typed from our fingers, that we regret.
Den51, I don't know what happened on the other board. Nor do I need to know. I will say one thing to you however. What happened happened and it can't be changed. Sometimes we have to just let go of things. There is no reason for it to be brought up here again.
Mary, I know you didn't come here for sympathy. We all come here to vent and just to get it out. Like is said to Den51, I don't know what happened and I don't need too. You are a good person and you deserve to be cared for. I'm sorry that happened to you on the other board. (((Hugs))) Believe me I understand about being too sensitive. I'm sensitive as well but I learned early on to put up my guard, my mask, to hide how I was really feeling and then when alone I break down. I care about you and so do the others here. (((Hugs)))
Welcome to the board. Like Misty said, I'm so sorry for the reasons behind you being here.
Thank you for sharing part of your story with us. It's extremely hard to open up like that. It sounds like you are on the journey of healing and you've made a lot of progress! We can be quiet on here sometimes but we are a caring bunch and always willing to listen. You're not alone anymore and this is a safe place.