I'm so glad that you're feeling better now! Changing meds can really throw your system off.
Insurance is unbelievable. I used to deal with it a lot because of my job and I've had to do more phone calls because of insurance mishaps than you can believe. I hope that it all gets straightened out for you.
My family was in the path of at least one of the tornado's but they are all okay. I got an email from them and there was just some minor damage but they are all fine otherwise. I hope everyone else and their families are safe too.
I know how hurt you're feeling, how much pain you're in, but I want you to know something... We care about you and we want you to be safe. Please let the people at IOP and FNP help you.
You are right that committing suicide is relatively easy to do but I also want you to remember something else... It's permanent and it causes so much pain to the people who love you. I read somewhere that suicide doesn't end your problems, it just passes them on to someone else. I think that is true. The problems in our lives, our past, sends us down a dark path sometimes, but things change. In time they get better maybe even in ways that we could never predict.
Don't give up. Don't give in. It's hard and tiring but please keep fighting. I don't know if you are a religious person but something that has always helped me is to pray. God is always there to listen to us. Especially when we are in pain and we need His help. Maybe if you have access to one right now, read some from the bible. I keep a list of some scriptures to read when I get down or feel like I'm going to loose it and going over them really does help. If you can, try looking up Psalms 34:18. It's one of my favorites.
Please take good care of yourself and stay safe. (((hugs)))
Please do keep yourself safe LLT... I wish there was something more that I could do for you. I'm glad that you made a safety contract with IOP for the weekend, but like Misty asked, what about Monday?
I know how much easier it seems to just let yourself go like that... I think about it often to be honest with you. You do deserve your cat Savannah that you love so much. You deserve to have help and to be cared for. Please don't give into your thoughts of letting go or hurting yourself. Please be safe.
You're not crazy, Misty. I know that it can feel that way sometimes but you're not. By the way, I don't know if other people use the word "veg" but I do. LOL
I'm not sure if anyone has a good answer to how you figure out who you are. I thought I knew who I was before but now I'm not so sure either. Right now I think I'm just Foxy's mom and the white chick in the neighborhood. LOL Speaking of Foxy... he just jumped into my clothes and is romping around in them.... Little stinker. LOL
I'm sorry Mary. I know it feels like sometimes no one listens, understands, or is there for you when you need them. I hope that someone gets in touch with you sometime soon today so that you can get to your appointment. (((gentle hugs if okay)))