I am feeling angry at myself, hurt, damaged goods, like all my work is a good progress yet slow, i want all of this to just be over. Having trust issues just screw up my relationship, trust after trauma have never been the same for me. I do have a good guy who can be annoying at times but he shows he love me in different ways, i am feeling like i don't deserve him that i am just damaging what we have because of my issues. From the first year of my relationship I was the one weak yet he stood there all through my crap and still with me and yet my trust is still not competently there. I don't know why is it because i feel i don't deserve to be love, or that i have my guards up to not feel pain because by trusting someone is putting your emotions at risk. I do trust him to a extend. I am feeling broken, I express my needs to him and he says he is willing to support my needs when it comes to vacation from sex. And yet my trust is not strong he feel hurt because he been trying to show me that he care about me and we been dating 5 yrs and 3 months now. I am feeling angry that all of this is happening, He mention to me he don't know how much he can take because of my trust issues. I am sad and feeling confused.View Thread