Oh dear. How awful for you that a wonderful holiday day can be ruined through NO FAULT OF YOUR OWN.
I would advise you that counseling would be the best thing for you. Find one with experience in sexual abuse...they will have the background to help you - in particular, help you through the upcoming holiday.
I assume you are planning to invite me to the private site. I would really welcome that. Good job, Misty, for thinking about that. And WebMD will not let you post your regular email address. My (disposable) WebMD email is:
I'm so happy to know that you finally reached out to God and asked Him to take over the situation. He is the only one who can move this situation in the direction it should go.
I wanted to remind you of the painting of Jesus standing at the door. Remember the message of the painting? WE have to open the door to Jesus. He has no door knob on His side - we have to ask Him into our life. I think approaching God for help is the same way. He says over and over in the Psalms that He is always there but WE have to ask Him for what we want.
I hope and pray that your friend is finding peace and that you are feeling better.
I've had good sessions with DrB lately. That's the good news.
Albert's uncle passed away on the first of the month. We drove 13hours to attend the services. He was my favorite. I broke down at the visitation, funeral, and the burial.
The morning of the uncle's services, we received a phone call that my best friend's husband had died very unexpectedly. I didn't handle that very well. My heart hurts for her. His funeral was Monday and I spent a lot of time crying on Monday.
Then DrB called Monday afternoon and rescheduled our appointment for tomorrow. I usually go on Tuesday. Oh well...
So I go to the store this afternoon to tackle the August bookwork. Step one balances. Step two doesn't balance and I found several mistakes of mine. I give up and come home. At least I didn't fall apart like I usually do. I slept from 3:30 to 6:30.
I think all the driving and emotional issues have worn me out.