Recently my favorite has become these coconut chocolate chip cookies that a new bakery in town makes. They are divine. Typically I bake my own cookies, but these are a sweet exception-a special treat from time to time.View Thread
I'm struggling a lot lately- hanging in there but not very well. I'm out of town for a conference that I was hoping would help rejuvenate me a bit. Unfortunately, office politics are a bit ugly right now and they didn't stay behind...grrr!View Thread
I'm exhausted- emotionally, spiritually, mentally, socially, physically, financially... I need a break from life. I want to curl up in a little ball in some dark corner somewhere- away from everyone and everything to just sleep for a few days. Then maybe I'd have enough energy to get out there again. Not going to happen anytime soon though- maybe in a couple of weeks. In the meantime...I'm totally and utterly exhausted.
Current- anything that is NOT a research journal or text book
Past- Sammy the Seal was one of my favorites, not sure why. I did buy me a copy of it a couple of years back though- it was fun to reconnect with that book.
One of my favorite books when I was younger and even now is the Secret Garden. The idea of being able to retreat to and come alive in the safety of a secret garden of my own has been a positive one for me throughout and has been instrumental in portions of my healing journey.
Thank you, Caprice, for starting this thread. It has reminded me how much reading has been an effective coping strategy for me that I've used since I was little. The ability to escape reality for a while into another found in a book has been a godsend. I think it is time to pick up another good book.View Thread
smile* Mary, your mention of Nancy Drew reminded me how inthralled with the Trixie Beldon series I was for a while there. I'd almost forgotten they even existed. Thanks for bringing that to mind for me. It is funny how much happy can exist in silly little snippets of memories like that. I really needed the reminder that there are those memories sprinkled in the midst of the less pleasants. Seriously, thank for that Mary.View Thread
I usually have a laundry list of things I want to accomplish as I begin a new year- you know, the kind that doesn't make it past the first couple of this week. This year is a little different.
My life, for a long time, has felt totally out of control. Way too much going on- working full-time, grad school full-time, family demands, health problems, etc. Everyone wanting so much- too much. The expectations and guilt trips. The huricane of emotions, flashbacks, nightmares, medication side-effects, tears, anger, and exhaustion of this healing journey. It is never ending. It feels like my life is ruling me rather than me ruling it. I've had enough! It is time to put life in order.
So, my new year resolution this time was- putting my life in order in all its aspects- work hours, school hours, physical environment, health, finances, family expectations. I'm not expecting to solve all of these issues, but I am going to make a hug dent in things.
My focus the last several weeks has been to put things in my physical environment in order. The house has become the family repository of all things junk. No more! I've got everyone in the house on board. We have been sorting and purging the junk- and organizing the stuff that will stay. I've made trip after trip to local charities, recyling center, and trash yard with car loads full of stuff, It is amazing how much calmer I'm feeling inside and how much more energy and motivation to keep the process going.
I have a long way to go to have my "life in order," but I'm getting there and it feels great!View Thread
Hi. I just want to welcome you. I'm sorry I didn't repsond earlier. I'm not able to read much on this board right now- I'm triggered very easily at this point. I did want to welcome you though and let you know that I look forward to getting to know you. I think that you'll see that the traffic on the board ebbs and flows depending on how everyone is doing. The number of responses you get at a particular point in time is definitely impacted by this. There are a lot of great people here who are amazingly caring and supportive. I hope that you continue to talk here. Along with working with a therapist, it is very helpful to have somewhere to come and talk with people who understand what you are going through.
Here's to a better night (I hope). Last night was miserable. The nightmares and body memories...it wasn't pleasant or pretty. It was bad. I've had many, many rough nights throughout this journey, but last night had to be among the top of them. I was physically ill in the morning- couldn't keeping anything down all morning which made work a lot of fun. Tonight has to be better- it just has to be. I don't think I can do this two nights in a row.