am devastated. this is supposed to be the happiest time of my life and now i am more depressed then ever. Me and my husband of almost a year are finally pregnant. this is my second child, my first of which was not with my husband and was 4 years ago. I went for my 13 week check up yesterday and even tho i get screened yearly for stds and have always been clean and never had anything. But the doctor tells me that i had test results come back positive for HSV1 and HSV2. I have never had an outbreak. I have never had any symptoms. i feel like a dirty person. i feel like because of this i just ruined my child's and my husbands life. I feel like my husband doesnt want anything to do with me anymore because if it and i dont know what to do with myself. I spent the whole day yesterday in bed crying and sleeping because i just dont know what to do with myself. I dont know who to talk to and talking to my husband is just painful because i didnt have this before i was with him. I wanted to get retested for it to verify the results , but the new hospital im at told me it would be pointless because there lab cant break down the results like that they can only tell me if i have hsv they wont say if its one or two.
im so depressed every time i think of it i just wanna cry....View Thread