I know exactly how all of you feel. I was just diagnosed with HPV/GW two days ago. It's been so difficult to accept. I'm dealing with all of my self-esteem insecurities and how this affects my relationship with my boyfriend.
I knew right away that I had to tell him. We've only been dating for nine months so I'm just waiting for the moment that he ends things with me because of this. He's been supportive for the most part and has always been, despite my two other autoimmune diseases. But I feel that with this new condition, things may change.
I'm afraid because he doesn't have symptoms and I know that we share this common strain of HPV, yet he's lucky enough to not have any symptoms. I fear how this will affect our intimacy. One thing that I'm learning is that this is now a part of me. I'm learning that if he leaves, so be it. I will find someone who will love me for who I am and will see past this.
What's crazy is that I find myself rather having high-risk HPV (cervical cancer). Isn't that insane? That although this low-risk HPV does not really pose any serious health conditions later down the road, I'd still rather have the one that causes cancer than deal with some superficial warts that can easily be treated.
I'm learning that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and accepting that there will be bad days, but I trust that there will also be good days. Just know that there are WORSE things in the world. This should only put things into perspective for us: to love the life that we live and not take things for granted. We may not understand why this has happened just yet, but one day we will and in some ironic way, we'll be thankful it did.
I appreciate all of your responses and can definitely understand how you feel. You're not alone.View Thread