Well, I did worse at 6 mg of Ambien than 7 or 8 but I actually improved when I went to the 5 mg tablets just the past 5 days. I believe I must actually be somewhat sleeping after I awake when the ambien wears off after just over 5 hours. I stay in bed for another 5 hours with some new sleep finally that came after dropping down on the Ambien. I'm pretty sure the Klonopin is helping me attain the needed sleep the last 5 hours. At least it was giving me rest when there seemed to be no hope in sleeping on my own. I hope when I get down to 4 mg or lower that I do feel better. I don't know what to expect because of my poor sleep situation for the last few years.
I believe I was close to death this January, I was suffering so severly that I had suicidal thoughts. My whole body went weak for weeks. I had trouble with my sitting muscles while sitting in my chair for about 1 month in December. My pysciatrists knows that I had suicidal thoughts and prescribed the Klonopin. I believe it was a vein (and benign from what a neurologist told me). I have healed (I saw the Amen clinic book on PBS, picked it up, went to the website and now eating much healthier foods and spices to prevent alzheimer's) but wondering what really happened (I suspect two or more blood clots in the opposite of the injured hip). I tried manually massaging these things out. It appears to have helped. When I walked on the leg in January I could feel the blood flow to the right hemisphere of my brain stop. There was a stretch that I used to try to push blood flow up through my neck. I would feel my neck and know whether I had blood flowing or not. It would be obvious. All the muscles on that side of the hip got severly strained one day on an all-day fishing trip when I had to stand on one leg because of an injured ankle. I could have ran or walked on the treadmill too much. I felt bad things happening inside my brain, loss of blood flow. At some point I was taking cayenne pepper to increase blood flow.
Yes, the hamstring injury has been a bummer. I feel like 4 inches of bone down the leg on the injured hip could shatter sometimes too. I am walking 2 or more miles per day and doing about 1 hour more exercise based on youtube fitness videos perhaps twice a week. I'm hoping that these strengthen the leg/hip for running again during the winter and probably biking again next year. I can only bike a 4-6 houses down in low gear without hurting the hip/hamstring.
I might be able to do a little Yoga but based on the severity to that joint it's not something that I will do right away.
My routine is dynamic as I am always having different types of days. Although, I don't usually program at night any more. I did this for a couple of months after not doing almost anything for a year. I do what work I can to keep myself in my field as a programmer. I don't have high hopes if I have to remain on an pysciatric medicine. When I switched from Seroquel to Saphris on the meds all my good memories came back for 1 day only (1 1/2 years ago). I hope when I get back to better sleep (7-8 hours of sleep per night) that I am able to reduce and eliminate Saphris. My memory is bad.
With all the meds I take right now my matress doesn't bother me but it is too firm and I will remember to do something about that when I do reduce the Ambien if it bothers me.
I might do a sleep study soon but it hasn't happened yet. I'm seeing a new neuro/pysciatrist specialist in Worcester, MA this month.
My blood pressure was low enough (116/70) last visit that they are now having me take half the dose. I measured it today and it is 121/88 after just 1 night of taking 25 mg instead of 50 mg Cozaar dose.View Thread
Right now, my exercise is just a 1 to 2 mile walk around the common daily. I injuried my hip, which looks like a pulled hamstring for which my doctor didn't give exercises to get better. I've reinjured it a few times since. So I went on Youtube to find exercises which I believe should help prevent reinjury. I would normally be biking 15-20 miles 2-3 times a week this time of year but cannot bike 1/4 mile without reinjuring the hip. Also, in the winter I run on the treadmill at least 1.5 mi at a time, 2.25 is about optimal. I've done Yoga of various sorts although I would say I am just a beginner. I hurt my hip doing 2 60 minute Yoga sessions in a day, which has really sucked. Probably going to be at least another 4 months before I even think about running again and Yoga scares me now.
For rituals, I typcially spend time in robotics (either programming or designing) because that is what I did my whole life before I got really sick from not sleeping. Some nights I do watch TV but I can't really say that I remember much of it. It's like it never gets recorded in my mind. Same thing with books and magazines. I can't retain new information easily. I had a 3.7 GPA both undergrad and grad and it's frustrating to see.View Thread