Ronkenjo,I understand completely.I have Fibromyalgia and osteoarthritis and I'm mostly home bound.My two sisters want nothing to do with me,they cannot be bothered by my disability,my husband divorced me because I couldn't work any longer.All this took place 24 years ago when I had a stroke,I'm 55 now and it's been painfully lonely.It's just me and my cat.I'm a smoker and I've tried several times to quit and I just cannot handle the withdrawal.I'm in constant pain and so very tired all of the time. I've smoked since I was 14,two packs a day,I had it down to one pack a day then I quit.Today is the seventh day and I can't handle it.I'm going back to smoking,It's just too much.View Thread