I am a 47 yo male with a 16 year history of polysubstance abuse with prescription drugs. In 1996 I went to Talbott Recovery Campus in Atlanta for a 5 month rehab and managed to stay clean until I relapsed in 2008. I was devastated and now I have been clean for 4 years and am active in NA. Im tired of being an addict and that sqeaky little guy on TV for Malibu treatment center says he was an addict for 10 years, now he is not. That grinds my ass and I want to kick his. I have always been taught that the cure for addiction is death. I have multiple back and neck problems that required me to retire as a nurse and on pain medication and a neurostimulator placement. I am currently on Opana 20mg ER with Percocet 10/325 2-3x as needed. My wife has control of my drug dispensing and I have to go to her office to get a dose. I am very close with the people In my pharmacy and I asked them to have my wife only to pick up my narcotics. I have a titanium rod in my neck from 4 ruptured discs and have 4 bulging lumbar discs with some nerve displacement. I wont be able to get off these meds because the stimulator only provides minimal relief. Anyone with familiar stories?View Thread