Missing work for treatment is not an option for me. I'm so trapped. I can deal with the physical, it's the emotional. I've built this perfect exterior and it's so shameful to even see a crack let alone imagine a chink appear because it might just let the flood gates explode. Do you have any recommendations of online chat rooms that are focused only on substance abuse support? Real time support would be best for those hours I can never get any comfort but at this time I'd take anything. I'm so desperate for any sort of emotional support because I know thats what caused this in the first place and that's what will cause a relapse. I'm still not physically comfortable but I feel less like climbing out of my skin today. Thank you for any help.View Thread
This is a desperate plug. I am trying to quit tramadol after a five year addiction. Presently, titrated for two weeks, 24 hours w/o tramadol, using ambien to sleep. Had the most terrible weekend of my life and finally used a Vicodin today just so I could work as I could not life a hand. My god, I could barely lift my arm to wash my hair. But still no Tramodol, don't have any, don't plan on getting any though I really want to and have extremely and intentionally limited supply of Vicodin just so I can work. Please no judgment. Someone please just let me know it gets better. I don't need judgment. I've done it to myself enough which is why I've quit but I want to hop online and make another order. The chills, the diarrhea, the sleeplessness, the lack of comfort, the shame, the disgrace, the exhaustion. I just want to know that I will glow again. I need help, to hear something kind. My b/f just thinks I have the flu. I am so ashamed. I can't even look at myself in the mirror. I wish I could just scratch my face off photographs.View Thread
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