I think this is a great post! It is so easy to be negative about this journey we are on, but I agree, there are positives that have come out of this already. I think acknowledging those while in the midst def helps the growth process. So here are my positives...
1) I have learned more about my DH and we have grown closer. I have loved seeing his desire to have children and do whatever it takes to get there.
2) I have developed a sensitivity to others in this situation that I did not have before. I have always been a sensitive and caring person, but this has opened my eyes to so many couples that struggle with IF issues. I am not as judgmental and I am way more sensitive to others' person issues in general.
3) My faith in God has been stretched, and I have learned to let go of control and trust Him. Ok that is def a work in progress, but it is in progress nonetheless! If my timing would have worked, I would have a newborn now in the midst of our move. So I trust that He knows that when I do get pg it will work out perfectly in His timing.
4) Other people, friends and family, do truly care about your struggles. It is amazing to know that I have friends praying for us specifically for this. Sometimes they say stupid things, but for the most part we have received a lot of support. And that includes you all too (the support and prayer part!!!)
5) I believe that I will love and appreciate and celebrate our child differently bc of what we have gone through to get there. And I know when I get there, I will realize that I wouldn't trade all this in for anything!View Thread
Awesome news Tanya!! So glad you like your RE!! It is good to move forward with some of this stuff and hopefully get some answers! I know the dx of PCOS is discouraging, but I'm so glad you are doing ok with things. The good thing is that you know and hopefully they can work with it. Lots of good things coming up, and I'm hoping to see a BFP in the very near future for you!
And thank you for staying around here on the board with us too. I understand moving on to a certain extent, but I don't like leaving completely. I've appreciated the relationships on this board a lot, and I care about each of the girls on here. Maybe that's my emotions being out of control or the fact that I'm dealing with a lot of goodbyes in my life right now with moving! Regardless, happy to hear your updates!!!! View Thread
Thank you all for your kind words, prayers and support! I'm thankful you all understand and care! My DH is looking at housing for us yest and today, so I've been stressing over that. I know the clomid def messed with my emotions this month, I was a crazy mess esp for a while there. I'm nervous to do next cycle w it again (if need be, I'm trying to stay positive here at 10dpo) since we will be closer to our move!
Anyway, the saga continues...lol. Thanks again! I really appreciate it!View Thread
I'm on cd26 and 10dpo. I'm expecting AF by Friday I think...who knows since this is my first c on clomid. I'm obviously hoping for a BFP, but at the very least I'm hoping AF doesn't come before Friday since I want to know that my LP is lengthened bc of the clomid. So far so good, since last month I had a 7 day LP! I don't know if I will test at all this week or wait til AF is late. I'm feeling some PMS symptoms unfortunately, super sore bbs since last wk and I had a little cramping last night. Just trying not to stress over everything, although you guys all know how easy that is
Jennifer, I had 2 baby showers the last 2 wknds. The first one was hard for me bc I got really emotional even though it was for my good friend who had infertility probs too. I just was emotional, what can you do? This wknd's one wasn't as bad for me. I'm very happy for my friends too, so I know exactly how you feel. GL this wk, I'm rooting for you cycle buddy!
Cali, enjoy your break the rest of this cycle. I hope it goes fast for you! And fun to a good wknd w DH and some yummy drinks . I had a glass of wine this wknd even though I'm in the 2ww. Some times you gotta just go w it.
Joelle, you are the sweetest! So exciting about vacation coming up? Going anywhere fun?? And yeah for your bday coming up!!!!
Hey ladies. I tend to be pretty positive on here most of the time despite what I've been dealing with in my ttc journey and other things going on in my life right now. I think I have a good perspective, at least long term on the ttc stuff. I'm hopeful that is going to happen, but in the right timing for us. When we found out we were relocating (which is what I mean by the other things going on in my life) I feel like that helped put things into perspective on why the timing hasn't worked out yet. It has been hard still, but gaining that perspective has given me a peace about things.
But despite the gained perspective, I've had a really hard several weeks. I know it's a combination of many things. Emotions due to the upcoming move, stress due to the upcoming move, stress due to ttc, and this cycle taking the clomid. I've cried more times than I'd like to admit over these last few weeks. DH and I have been arguing a ton lately mostly just bc we are both stressed and have so much to figure out with our move. I had a family member make a comment last wk about our ttc issue that just really has been weighing on me. I'm just really struggling to deal with things without getting so emotional.
So now that complainfest 2010 is over, I guess I just needed to get that out. I'm struggling. And that is never fun. This whole process is just hard bc it requires some character development and growth that I wasn't really looking for, but apparently I needed.
Thanks for listening. I hope you all have a great weekend!View Thread
First of all, I am so sorry that you had to get that news yesterday. I read your other post from last night, and I can understand taking the news that hard. I would have too in your shoes! Hope you are doing a little better today, and hopefully the rest of this month will fly and on to the next cycle.
(Possible trigs ) I can only speak from my friends' experiences here, although I have 3 very close friends that have done this route. 2 of those friends are now pg. The 3rd friend just starting round 2 with the inj. stims. During her first cycle she did not do the IUI, not sure if she will this time or not. Friend #1 did 9 (yes, I said 9) cycles of clomid. They were not consecutive and she didn't O on some of them at all (even on 150mg). On her first cycle of inj. stims she got pg. They used menopur then a trigger, but no IUI. Friend #2 got pg on cycle 3 of inj. stims but m/c (she has several other issues going on too), but then got pg on cycle 5 with IUI (actually 2). I think she used menopur and a trigger also, although I think they did follistim at least one of the cycles. Then friend #3 is using follistim and a trigger (and clomid never worked at all for her either).
With all of these ladies, they were also going in almost every other day or so for the internal u/s and b/w. Friend #1's dr. was 1 hr away too.It is a lot, and it is physically and emotionally draining. But the end result is worth it. And the fact that there seems to be a better chance with these inj. stims since you haven't responded to clomid makes it worth trying. I know the $$ makes it so hard to swallow esp. if it doesn't work the first try. But since they monitor you so closely they can tweak your protocol for the next cycle to give you a better chance.
HTH. I know it isn't my experience, but I have literally been right beside these ladies during their experiences. I've cried with them during their BFNs and then again (tears of joy) when they got their BFPs!
Hope from this board just got her BFP last week with her 1st c of inj stims too! I was hoping she would update this week, but I haven't seen anything yet.View Thread
You know I will Cate! I can understand your frustrations with trying to track all this. I hope your cycle needed to just adjust a little after your m/c and that now things will work for you. Hoping this is your month! Again, happy bding!View Thread